Living Simple in Abundance

Lakshmi is the Goddess of abundance, good fortune and fertility. She also represents worldly and spiritual success, beauty, love, harmony and kindness. Upon her blessing you will be filled with her own qualities such as gratitude, forgiveness, generosity and healing. She is Vishnu’s wife and their marriage symbolizes the coming together of the masculine and feminine energy. Lakshmi’s energy is nourishing and cooling which balances the fiery energy of Kali and the blazing energy of Durga, all Shakti Goddesses.  Lakshmi is called upon for harmony in relationships, self-esteem issues, fertility issues and/or if you are struggling with a sense of lack in any area of your life. “Above all, she is inviting you to stop looking at the surface of life to see your beauty and success. She cries out to you to stop comparing yourself to others in a negative way, instead turn inside and connect with the magic and beauty already present.” Inspiring and clear words about Lakshmi from yoga teacher Sianna Sherman. She is the Goddess to encourage you to be grateful every day, especially for those ‘normal’ aspects and material in your life that we often take for granted: the house you are able to live in, the food you put in your body every day, the sun you feel on your skin, the clothes your wear, your ability to sense, feel, see, hear and smell, your physical body and all its abilities etc.

You could call upon Lakshmi for more worldly success in terms of money, fame and outward beauty. Though this can easily turn into a so called ‘shadow’ side of Lakshmi which can take form in attachments to material goods, corruption, greed, consumerism, enormous difference between the rich and poor. One of Lakshmi’s lessons is that what we really crave is not more stuff, but the inner experience of abundance and beauty. The sense of sufficiency or satisfaction is a key ingredient for happiness and can be seen as a primal Lakshmi feeling state or the felt sense of having enough. All Shakti Goddesses are an aspect of our life force or prana. Therefore the sense of sufficiency of abundance and beauty in our lives is already within us, it is ‘only’ a matter of connecting with this magical feeling. Lakshmi is inviting you to simply being present and putting our best and most authentic effort in whatever we do. (Source ‘Awakening Shakti, the transformative power of the Goddesses of Yoga’ by Sally Kempton).

This doesn’t mean we all have to turn into minimalists and live from the sun. Lakshmi reminds me of the niyama (observances within the yoga philosopy) santosha or contentment. One of my teachers once explained santosha as ‘living simple so that other people can live simple lives too.’  For me this is a beautiful yogic way of living, taking and having enough for you to fulfil your needs, so there is enough left for others to do the same. This is such a key and important message if we think of the climate crisis. At the moment I am reading a Dutch book about our earth and climate (‘Hoe gaan we dit uitleggen, onze toekomst op een steeds warmere aarde’, Jelmer Mommers) which talks a lot about our CO2 emissions and states that the 1% richest people on our planet are producing the same amount of CO2 emissions as the poorest 50%!! I hope this shocks you as much as it did me! For me this is a reminder that taking much more than you need is damaging your surroundings, all living beings, our planet AND I believe it doesn’t create any more internal abundance. Now more than ever it is the time to wake up and realize what your priorities are in life. Do we all need two cars, a big house and garden, holidays far away from home, the latest phones and ipads and new clothes and furniture according to the latest trends?

I have realized more and more what makes me connect with the primal Lakshmi feeling state of inner sufficiency: for me that is having the freedom to step on my pushbike and go into nature with my beautiful boys, being able to practice yoga and meditate, to have time to prepare healthy yummy food, to have time to bring my boys to school and put them to bed, to be able to spend quality time with my family and friends, to move my body every day and being able to have some time to myself to write this piece! At times I compare myself to college friends; most of them have well earning and well respected jobs. I have received a Master’s degree in International Public Health, though I have never had a well earning or well respected job! Though, I am happy to say that I am content and joyful with my life. I can’t and don’t want to join in the rat race of life and career that I see happening around me some times, also in the yoga world. What are we striving for? What are we trying to gain? Lately I have experienced that turning inward in form of meditation, pranayama, listening to a beautiful song or just sitting can fill my heart with contentment. I turn inward and connect with the abundance already there. What makes your heart sing?


The Whangarei Falls, where the water flows abundantly

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Wisdom of a beautiful white Swan and her rider

Saraswati is the daughter of Shiva and Durga. The Goddess of knowledge, music, arts, wisdom and nature and represents the free flow of wisdom and consciousness. The meaning of Saraswati is ‘the flowing one’. She is seen as the mother of the Veda’s or the Hindu scriptures. Saraswati is praised by the wise and artist of all forms and without her there is only chaos. All Indian Goddesses are connected to creativity, because Shakti is inherently creative. But Sarawati is the one whose cosmic function is to embody the creative flow through language, speech and sound. (Source: Awakening Shakti, the transformative power of the Goddesses of Yoga by Sally Kempton).

Solitary creative woman

Since Saraswati is very much dedicated to personal growth and to gain more insights and wisdom, she often ends up alone in the mythological stories. This is also for true for the ‘Saraswati women’ among us of whom many are not ending up in long term relationships. They live solitary lives and are often seen as unconventional, since they are unaware of the existence of any rules. Saraswati women get their deepest satisfaction from being in touch with the creative flow of life. Commonly women who identify with Saraswati are writes, nuns, scholars, musicians, spiritual teachers, scientists, yoginis or artists.


Saraswati also symbolizes discipline and rigor, since to truly master an art we have to spend hours and hours practicing. She is not your traditional wife, instead she prefers to spend all her time studying, meditating, practicing or learning. Sarawati is not so much focused on financial gains or abundance more so on recognition, fame and acknowledgment of her / his (you also have men with lots of Sarawati energy) skills. Saraswati can also be noticed in the teacher who is asking the right (critical) questions for you to learn and grow.

Shadow Saraswati

Saraswati is the deity to invoke when you need some help with your communication. For example becoming a better listener or being able to speak truthfully from your heart. She is also the original energy behind the internet and computer wizards can be seen as children of Sarawati. In her book Awakening the Shakti, Sally Kempton calls Sarawati the ‘cosmic downloader’, “the mother of innovation, who lives as the source code behind your computer’s programs as well as in your inspirations and your capacity to follow them to a real-world manifestation.” Miscommunication or communication that isn’t pure and true is also called the Shadow Saraswati. It can be small like talking too much and not being able to listen well. Or something bigger like causing big harm through propaganda which can potentially cause war and for sure lots of pain and damage. We fall into the shadow of Saraswati if we don’t notice the difference between truth and falsehood and if we are not able to use our speech to speak the truth.

Tapping into your intuition

Saraswati is also the one to turn to when you are looking for inspiration, wisdom and answers. This requires you to listen very careful, to turn your attention inward, because Saraswati voice is so subtle and her voice is often hidden. There are two distinctive ways to receive inspiration from Saraswati or tap into your own intuition. Since connecting with your own intuition is symbolizing you connecting with your inner guru or Saraswati. One way to connect with her is through automatic writing, the other one is through inner listening. For both ways to work, it is required first to take time to become calm, aware and present, through for example a meditation practice. Then you can choose the way that works best for you and let the inspiration flow through you.

Flowing like water

Saraswati can also teach us to learn go with the flow while seeing her sitting comfortably on her beautiful white Swan going with the natural stream of the river effortlessly. Every corner of the river represents a new experience and Saraswati accepts this new situation fully. Since how do you learn and gain more insights? Through new experiences and situations. Saraswati is for me the invitation to embrace the quality of water within us and flow through life with ease, joy and trust. It brings me back to my childhood when I played outside in nature during the holidays and lost track of time and was ‘in the flow’ while playing and discovering. It reminds me of those moments where I listened to a beautiful song that reminds of how perfect this very moment is. Ultimately, it is the realization that the wisdom & happiness we all seek, is already here in this very moment and in the wisdom of our own body.

Note: The inspiration and lots of the wisdom in this blog post is a summary of the chapter about Saraswati in Sally Kempton’s book: Awakening the Shakti. The transformative power of the Goddesses of Yoga.





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Angelina Jolie as a Shakti Goddess

Durga is the warrior goddess of inner strength, protection and courage. Like Parvati and Kali, she represents the Shakti, the feminine divine power. Though Durga remains independent and will never be married to a man. Durga can be translated as a fort or a place that is protected and thus difficult to reach. Besides a warrior goddess, she is also a mother goddess and a beautiful attractive woman. Angelina Jolie holds the Durga personal archetype in many of her films, as well as in her activist and personal life. This great Durga woman example and more details about Durga in this blog comes from the book: Awakening Shakti. The transformative Power of Goddesses of Yoga by Sally Kempton. This is a wonderful book if you are passionate to dive into the characteristics and qualities of the different goddesses. Like Angelina Jolie, Durga is a powerful and confident woman or force and at the same time irresistibly beautiful and sexy, but not in the need or having the desire for a man to protect and care for her. Instead she is the one taking care of those in need. You call upon Durga for protection and a safe place literally or more symbolically.

Durga rides a roaring lion or a tiger. She has long flowing hair, bangles, necklaces and a crown. She is a warrior woman with eight hands carrying weapons: spear, mace, discuss, bow, sword, conch, lotus (representing fertility) and a rosary. Durga also possesses three eyes which represent agni (fire), surya (sun) and chandra (moon). Durga, also called divine Shakti protects mankind from evil and misery by destroying evil forces, such as: negative energy, arrogance, jealousy, prejudice, hatred, anger, greed and selflishness. Durga is the other half of Shiva, he is the form, and she is the expression. Shakti (Durga) is considered to be the mother of the universe, while Shiva is the father. It is believed that by chanting “Om Sri Durgaya Namah”, Durga will remove the physical, mental and worldly problems in life and shower us with her unlimited blessings. Durga is the one who takes us through difficulties, a crisis or when you are struggling to make a decision. No challenge is too big for her and she has unlimited amounts of patient and always keeps a sense of humor, even in the most challenging (spiritual) fights. Durga’s fierceness arises out of her uniquely potent compassion. She is the deity to call upon when you are in deep trouble. She will always appear when we need her to protect our world and she promises to move mountains to rescue us from every form or evil, including the evil we ourselves create.

Her key teachings are to never doubt your own power to stand firmly in your own truth and to call forth your fearless heart. You can recognize her in the strong winds, crashing waves and in powerful leaders who take groups of people through a crisis or war. For me the current prime minister of New Zealand, Jacinda Ardern is a wonderful powerful yet compassionate example of a Durga woman. Durga is one of the most popular goddesses in India, especially young Indian women, the icon of liberation and power. Durga Shakti doesn’t cradle you. Instead she lends you strength to do what you have to do. Durga women don’t cry easily. In fact, they often don’t show emotion, especially not negative. Questions to ask Durga can be:

  • What is the major inner obstacle I have to face now?
  • What do I need to let go of?
  • What should I be paying more attention to?

I am not sure about you, but for me this brings up enough things to consider. At times I feel like the opposite of a Durga woman, I cry very easily and I am sensitive and therefore emotional at times. I would love to invoke more of Durga’s courage and inner strength and at the same time not ignore my sensitivity like I have tried to do in the past. What I would like to let go of is the perfectionist in me, especially as a wife, householder, woman and a yoga teacher. Therefore I need to trust more on myself and that all will turn out well in the end, probably different from what I had in my mind or expected. A major inner obstacle for me at the moment is to be patient on my journey to balance. After hectic stressful years, life is starting to slow and settle down, though my mind isn’t always calm and settled and a lot of seemingly enjoyable activities can bring up stress. That realization can bring up stressful thoughts in itself! The way to this obstacle isn’t ignoring or trying to fight it, instead acceptance and compassion is the key. That life is already good as it is including the ups and downs. Paying more attention to this very moment and the joy of my still little innocent and wise kids is the key. In this way, this very moment becomes the fort, the save place that Durga symbolizes. A symbolic place right here and now that protects me from all my disempowering and worrying thoughts. You can ask yourself the question: “Is there a problem right here in this moment?” This very question returns me back to my fort.

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Letting my wild woman roar

Kali is the fierce powerful goddess we all have in ourselves and an incarnation of Parvati. She was born out of the third eye of the goddess Durga, who got so enraged that her anger burst from her forehead in the form of Kali, representing hatred. Kali is the one full of confidence and strength. She is also known as ‘Crazy Kali’ and her feature confirms that: she looks scary and wild and has wide open eyes with her tongue sticking out and four arms. She is usually symbolized with a sword in one hand and a cut off head in her other hand. She is also called the ‘Black Mother’, ‘the Dark’ or ‘the Awful One’. Kali is the female counterpart of Shiva and is symbolizing transformation through destruction. Her energy is purifying, since she destroys all demons and evil that keeps us from living our life to the fullest and in order to let the light of good triumph.

Kali is the one to call upon if you would like to transform or change aspects of your life and shed unnecessary baggage or to connect with the fierce goddess within you to cultivate courage, inner strength and confidence. Kali often appears in dark tough times when change is unavoidable and necessary such as illness, heart break, financial loss and career change, when boundaries are being pushed. She is done with the old way of doing things. Without her husband Shiva, Kali’s power could go unchecked and destroy the universe. Shiva’s clear light of consciousness gives direction to this powerful energy. Kali’s energy isn’t only about destruction, power and strength. She also reminds us to incorporate a feminine energy that is creative and playful. Kali is also connected to the first chakra and therefore has a grounding and stabilizing effect.

I can definitely use some fierce Kali energy. I recently discovered that I carry an unhealthy vow or belief with me. I felt responsible for the emotions and happiness of those people around me that are vulnerable or can perceived as weaker. When I discovered this (with the help of family constellations and journey therapy) I transformed this belief into a more healthy and supporting one: My happiness inspires people around me to choose for happiness as well. I can be that fierce and crazy Kali lady that walks her own path and chooses happiness without being responsible for the reactions of others.

This for me represents Kali: to shed away any dark layers and unhealthy habits that prevent you from living your life and follow your dreams. A couple of weeks ago, I also decided to delete my facebook account which has given me space and time to live my own life and be more focused on my immediate surroundings. I kept holding on to my facebook account, because I kept telling myself that it is necessary for growing my work as a yoga teacher. However, it was mainly an energy and time sucker and it feels much more peaceful and calm not to spend my time on social media platforms.

Kali also reminds me not to carry my sensitivity on my sleeve. Instead, share my struggles and worries with the right people at the right time. Lately, I have received plenty of reminders that sharing my emotional and mental world can often be misinterpreted. When I let my inner Kali be present, I can stand firmly in my shoes and beliefs and not to let me throw off balance by other people’s opinions and judgments. The reality is that not everybody will like me or what I am doing. So instead of pleasing others, I focus more on pleasing myself. I invite you to let your inner Kali roar too and be a bit crazy like Kali at times and stick your tongue out!


Goddess Kali standing right on top of her husband Shiva (Source:

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Behind every successful man stands a strong woman


From Ganesha, Shiva and Hanuman we move to Parvati. Parvati is known to be the most important wife of Shiva. Shiva and Parvati have two sons together Ganesha and Skanda. Together with Shiva Parvati symbolizes the strength to create and destroy. Only Parvati’s presence is enough for Shiva to bring about uncontrollable desires. Parvati symbolizes the marriage and the well behaved wife. She is also the goddess of beauty and often symbolized with beautiful round curves and full features. Parvati, like Shiva is known in many different forms: Durga (the brave goddess) and Kali (the black goddess) are well known incarnations. Parvati has to watch how Shiva easily plays adultery on a regular basis, but he always returns to Parvati.

Prana shakti

Parvati represents our longing to unite in the form of a romantic relationship, as well as to unite/connect with our own essential nature, a vibration we can call consciousness or the “mother energy” that holds everything together. This energy vibrates and pulsates and is also called prana shakti or life force. Through the practice of yoga especially meditation we can reunite with the prana shakti in us and around us. We can recognise and see the prana shakti in the cycles of the moon, the seasons, the rhythm in our ocean tides, the cycle of day and night and the sparkle in the stars. In our bodies the prana shakti is experienced with the blood running through our veins, the beating of our heart as well as the continuous cycle of the inhale and exhale. It is that energy that brings about continuous movement in our bodies, conscious and unconscious movements.

Power of the breath

Our ever present breath represents this ‘mother energy’ or prana shakti and is the life force that keeps us alive. Through our breath we can actively influence our nervous system and thereby affect the way we feel emotionally, mentally, physically and spiritually. Our breathing is such a normal, regular, automatic activity and at the same time such a powerful tool in many ways that goes beyond words. It brings me back to that time I was in the midst of giving birth to my first son and the focus on my breath was the only grip I could hold on to. I went into a meditative state is what the midwife later wrote in her report. Luckily I had my mum (an experienced yogini and mother of four) nearby and guiding me with breathing when the moment was there to push. She reminded me to relax my jaws (something I remind my yoga students of all the time, but forgot to do myself in this intense experience) and there he was and he took his first breath! Magic has happened yet once again. In an instant I became mother and my mother became a grandmother. The ‘mother energy’ that all gives us life and keep us living.

Parvati and Shiva reunited

Prana shakti is a reminder that everything is constantly moving and changing. All is coming and going. This realisation is a way to connect with the life force within us. In our patriarchal society, humans often feel more like rocks and we have lost the sparkle in own eyes, we have forgotten about the passions we had as children and we are unable to connect with the flow in us and around us. Being in nature, moving, dancing, meditating and practicing asanas are all ways to connect with the prana shakti. I think the world could use some more softness, compassion and love that comes with a more matriarchal society. In many cultures and countries women are honoured for their ability to give birth. For example within the Maori culture in New Zealand, but also in the old cultures in Europe before other religions took over. It is not without reason that we call our planet mother earth and the connection of a mother to her child(ren) is unbelievable powerful and based on unconditional love. Some say that man might have been intimidated or jealous by the power of women and therefore try to repress this female energy. We all know the saying: behind every successful man, stands a strong woman. Prana shakti or parvati doesn’t imply that woman are superior over man. This female energy (parvati) when reunited with the male energy (shiva) creates a healing and creative magnetic energy in us and on the earth. We all have the shiva and the shakti energy within us. It is our invitation to connect, accept and embrace both of them. It is my belief that this will bring more balance and healing on our planet. When practicing yoga, you can invite both the female (yin, softening, receiving, cooling) and the male (strength, power, heat, yang) into your practice. I truly believe when you can connect with your own true essence or your prana shakti, it is also easier to connect on a deeper (romantic) level with another person and experience union.

Pregnant with my second son embodying the so-called mother energy (2017)



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Making Peace with your Monkey Mind


Hanuman, the monkey god is believed to be another one of Shiva’s incarnations, like Shiva Nataraj we highlighted last post. Hanuman symbolizes pure love, devotion, strength, persistence and shows us that we have gifts beyond what we think we are capable of. There are many different stories about Hanuman, told in many different ways. I will share one of my favourites.


It starts with Hanuman’s mother Anjana. She desperately wants to become a mother, so she prays every day for a child. The god of the wind, Vayu hears her prayers and decides to fulfil her wish by sending her rice grains that made her conceive. Her son was born and called Anajaneya (son of Anjana), he was half human and half god, since Vayu, the god of the wind was his father. At times, being half god with special powers brought him into trouble. One morning he woke up and saw a mango floating in the sky or that is what he thought it was. Of course it wasn’t a mango but the sun, Surya. When Surya saw Anajaneya coming after him he threw a lightning bolt towards him. Anajaneya was wounded in his jaw and died. Vayu his dad was outrageous and inhaled deeply to breathe in all the air on the planet which made all living beings gasp for air. All the gods came together to deal with this emergency. They all decided to bring Anajaneya back to live under a new name: Hanuman (hanuh = jaw). He was also cursed with a short memory to make sure he wouldn’t remember being half god with special powers to prevent him from causing more harm. He wouldn’t live with his mother anymore but with the apes in the forest. That is why he transformed into an ape to better fit in with his new family.

Ram & Sita

One day Hanuman met King Ram and instantly felt a connection and made a vow to never leave his side. Ram is married to Sita, a beautiful woman with heavenly qualities. The demon King Ravana is jealous at the couple and decides to start a war to take over the kingdom. He kidnapped Sita and brings her to the island of Lanka. Ram is busy with protecting his kingdom that is why Hanuman sets out to free Sita. Hanuman has no idea how, since he doesn’t remember he has special powers. From a place of pure devotion and love for Ram he manages to overcome his own doubts about his capabilities. When he arrived at the shore with the Island Lanka in his vision he kneels down into hero pose, Virasana to pray. Hanuman closed his eyes and asks for support to help him accomplish the impossible. When he felt he had enough energy, he pressed his feet into the earth and took his famous leap to the island of Lanka.

“It was the greatest leap ever taken. The speed of Hanuman’s jump pulled blossoms and flowers into the air after him and they feel like little stars on the waving treetops. The animals on the beach had never seen such a thing; they cheered hanuman, then the air burned from his passage, and red clouds flamed over the sky.”

The yoga pose Hanumanasana (full spilt) mimics Hanuman’s famous leap from the southern tip of India to the Island of Sri Lanka. I personally love the stories behind the asanas. It is inspiring to know what the story is behind the posture and it also gives the pose another dimension then just the physical plane. The above described story comes from; Myths of the Asanas: The stories at the Heart of the Yoga Tradition, by Arjuna van der Kooij & Alanna Kaivalya. They have more stories about Hanuman, as well as other yoga asanas. I highly recommended this wonderful book.

Monkey pose

The pose Hanumanasana can bring up all kind of associations and emotions for you. Dislike or like? Stillness or agitation? You might desperately want to get into the full expression of the pose, even though your body proportions will never allow you too without causing harm. Can you be content with your journey towards the pose without attachment? Can you still breathe and smile while finding your edge in the (half) spilt? I can tell you one thing for sure; if your pelvis is touching your mat it doesn’t make you any happier or reward you with more yoga points. The biggest thing that is affected is probably your ego (and possibly your hamstrings and hips). As a yoga teacher, I don’t really care where you are in the pose. For me it is more interesting and inspiring what the pose is doing with you? Can you continue to breathe and believe in your own strength and possibilities while being in the midst of the intensity of the pose? And when you step of the mat, can you continue to stay connected with your heart and focus your mind when in the midst of challenges and struggles? These questions are symbolising the strength and healing powers of yoga to me.

Monkey mind

Only you know what you can learn from Hanuman. One of his qualities, keeping a sense of humour and lightness under all circumstances is a powerful one for me. However hard the situation is you are in right now, can you also stay light and see the humour in every circumstance, maybe not in the midst of your struggles, but in hindsight. Hanuman also symbolizes our mind. The unpractised mind is like a drunken ape stung by a bee, also called the monkey mind. When our mind is focused, we can accomplish anything. For me this is a reminder of the strength of our mind and to keep our mind focused through meditation and asana practice, the full spectrum of yoga. To not let your crazy thoughts lead you all the time, instead connect with the devotion and deep love and strength of your inner Hanuman. You could see Hanuman as a reminder to be devoted to your own heart that is leading the way.

Jai Hanuman!


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Miffy’s Power and a bit about Shiva

Last post I wrote about Ganesha, the remover of obstacles. Ganesha is the son of Shiva and Parvati. Shiva is known as the destroyer as well as the creator. Together with Brahma and Vishnu, Shiva forms the triple deity. Brahma is seen as the creator of the universe. Vishnu preserves and protects the universe and Shiva is the destroyer of the universe. Shiva is often called upon and seen as creator, preserver and destroyer. In Shiva the opposites meet.

Shiva can take up many shapes and incarnations. Shiva Nataraj is one of Shiva’s incarnations, also known as Lord of the Dance. While we practice dancers’ pose on our yoga mat we can call upon the power of Shiva Nataraj. Shiva Nataraj is seen surrounded by a circle of flames while standing on a demon shown as a dwarf who symbolizes ignorance or our lower (ego)parts. Shiva is an invitation to wake up and remember your true nature or essence. ‘Om Namah Shiva’ can be translated as ‘I bow to my inner light or teacher’ or ‘I recognize my true essence’.

Shiva Nataraj also symbolizes all the cycles we experience in life; the cycle of day and night, winter, spring, summer and autumn, joy and sadness and the cycle of birth and death. For me Shiva Nataraj reminds me that in the end, all will end, everything is a phase and to dance through the cycles with joy and playfulness. I once heard a great saying; The good news is: it is a phase and will end and the bad news is: it is a phase and will end. You cannot have true joy without real sadness. In our everyday society we often behave as if we live forever and deny the truth that life is precarious and live accordingly. I have realised that not everybody likes to think and talk about death. For me it is not necessarily a depressing sad truth, rather the reality and therefore an invitation to be grateful for all the little things in life. When contemplating our limited time I often ask myself questions like; have I said everything I want to say to my loved ones? Am I living the life I want to live?

Shiva or our true essence reminds me to treasure this special time I have with my little kids who are very much in tune with the dance of life. I recently heard from Ram Dass, that the best thing to do to prepare yourself for death is to live NOW. So I am blessed to have two little wise teachers reminding me of this every day. Little kids haven’t identified themselves with their ego as much as adults and they often haven’t got any idea of time yet. They perfectly and naturally know how to live in this moment with all their attention and energy. For me this is a wonderful lesson, since I have the tendency to overthink, overanalyse and worry instead of being truly present. While I am writing this first draft, I am holding a little miffy cuddly toy on my lap given to me by my eldest son. ‘Here mum this one is for you, miffy will make sure to scare away all the ghosts (demons) for you.’

Om Namah Shivah!


“You know, for always trying to banish our pain we don’t learn anything from it, and it can’t help us to serve others, so we have to turn towards it. Allow ourselves to touch the pain of our life with some mercy and tenderness. When we realize just how precarious this life is – and it is absolutely precarious – then we don’t want to waste a minute. Then we want to use our lives in a responsible way. We want to jump into our life fully. We want to tell the people we love that we love them.”

– Frank Ostaseski– 

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New Beginnings with Ganesha

My son holding a little Ganesha

Ganesha, the friendly and loving elephant God, who is placed in front of many doors and entrances, the remover of obstacles, the gatekeeper. Ganesha, like other Hindu deities, invites us to connect with this energy within us, not to worship outside of us. The start of a new beginning like a new year is the perfect time to connect with Ganesha’s playful energy and attitude. Ganesha isn’t only seen as a remover of obstacles (inner and outer), but also as the one who places obstacles on your path for you to grow and learn.

2018 has been a year with many challenges and obstacles while remigrating to The Netherlands after 7 years of living in New Zealand. I arrived in New Zealand with two suitcases filled with clothes and shoes and 1 year work and holiday visa while being crazily in love with a special Dutch-Kiwi guy. After almost 7 years far away from my family, I came back with a family myself and a container filled with belongings. Last year we sold our home in New Zealand and bought a home in The Netherlands, we packed all our belongings and unpacked those 6 months later. On my birthday, the 17th of June we said goodbye to Whangarei, the birth place of both our sons and the next day we boarded an airplane only uncertainty ahead. Those long flights, first to Bali and then to The Netherlands, aren’t something we are keen to repeat in a hurry. My eldest son still tells us he doesn’t want to go on an airplane, because it is “too long”. I am still traumatised by the memory of having to change his poo nappy while screaming and kicking in a tiny airplane toilet when he finally did poo after a long time of holding it.

Fortunately, we experienced two summers in a row last year! And Holland had the most warm and beautiful summer in years, as if, with all those obstacles being faced and overcome, ‘something’ let us know we were supported. My husband found work easily (we also got married in 5 minutes on a Monday morning last year) and my family has been extremely supportive and helpful. We ended up living in a small cabin on a camping for 5 months. Let’s just say that I am glad this tiny house living experience with two active young boys, is over. Those boys + my crazy mind, sensitivity,  worries, thoughts and emotions have giving us many sleepless nights last year. Being sleep deprived and then still not being able to sleep is something I don’t wish upon anyone.

So 2019, I am so ready for you! The year of plenty of new beginnings: new country, new surroundings, new home, new yoga studio and community, new pre-school for my eldest, new social network to build up, new jobs. Even though I am very happy that we made the decision to move back to The Netherlands, I also have many sweet memories to New Zealand and all the friends and family living there we have to miss now. Hence the decision to (try) keep writing this blog in English, to stay in touch and connected. So please excuse spellings errors and mistakes and embrace my perfectly imperfect self. My intention for 2019 is to feel and experience JOY in every aspect of my life. Something I have missed a lot last year.

Ganesha with his beautiful round belly represents abundance as well as the ability to digest emotions, food, impressions and thoughts with ease. He also symbolizes strength and stability. Qualities I would like to call upon in this year of new beginnings. Ganesha, also known as Ganapati, is often seen with a friendly smile on his face, reminding me to love myself and others, especially when life throws you curveballs. When the going gets tough Ganesha might have placed obstacles on my path for those stubborn parts in me which can do with some more learning. You could see it as tough love.

Ganesha has big ears to remind me to listen carefully and his trunk is a reminder to be careful what you put in your body and mind, be discriminative. If I think of elephants, I also think of playfulness and strength and the courage to keep going in the direction of your heart and to embrace an attitude of playfulness in all you do. When you look at Ganesha what do you see and feel? Yoga is for all of us a unique experience and yet the same. “Same, same, but different”, they would say in many countries where you can find elephants in the wild. What I have realized (again) in the last year, is that yoga keeps me sane, joyful, happy and inspired. Therefore I am very grateful I have yet found another wonderful yoga studio to share my passion for this powerful practice. You can join met on Saturday mornings 10am at MK Studio in Waalwijk.

From my Ganesha-heart to yours,

Jacinta Lammers


Can you connect with your inner playful Ganesha?

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Inspiring books about pregnancy, childbirth and motherhood

After my last blog, I decide to write up another list of inspiring books. This time about Pregnancy, Childbirth and Motherhood. 🙂 I will also link to recommended reading on another website, which I thought to be awesome! Pregnancy, Childbirth and Motherhood can be amazing, very hard and challenging and wonderful all at the same time. I often say, being/becoming a mother is the most wonderful and the hardest ‘job’ I have ever done in my life. You only know and feel this through experience. I feel that in our society being ‘just’ a mother is underestimated and looked down upon. While in my eyes it is one of the most important and most hardest (unpaid) ‘jobs’ you can have. Suddenly you have a precious human being in your arms, you are a mum, with not much or none training or experience and you are left to take care of this little baby. The last 16 months of my life, have been as a mum and it is so beautiful and I love my little boy immensely and it is also Damn Hard Work and mentally exhausting. He is never been a good sleeper, so since he has been born I have never had quite enough sleep myself. I am not looking for compliments or sympathy, rather I encourage and invite other women and mums to share our struggles as well as our wonderful moments. So instead of the one sided picture often portrayed at social media, (new) mums and our society get the real deal. I hope this is helpful to you and of course Merry Christmas and a Fantastic New Year. My mum duties are calling, so I will leave you to it.

Pregnancy & Childbirth books:

Spiritual Midwifery by Ina May Gaskin

Ina May’s Guide to Childbirth by Ina May Gaskin

Hypnobirthing by Marie F. Mongan  ( I also enjoyed reading similar work often titled ‘Gentle birthing’)

Yoga Mama, Yoga Baby: Ayurveda and Yoga for a Healthy Pregnancy and Birth Book by Margo Shapiro Bachman

Bountiful, Beautiful, Blissful by Gurmukh (I actually haven’t read this book myself, but the description of it, sounds perfect. I would definitely try to read this book when I am expecting again. This book is from the recommended reading from another website as mentioned above, for more great recommendations: One Heart Yoga recommended reading

Mother’s Breath: A Definitive Guide to Yoga Breathing, Sound and Awareness Practices for Pregnancy, Birth, Post-Natal Recovery and Mothering by Uma Dinsmore-Tuli (This book is also still on my to read list, I have the feeling this is a wonderful and practical book)

Mum and Baby yoga books:

Baby Om, for Mothers and Babies by Laura Staton and Sarah Perron

Yoga Mom, Buddha Baby, The Yoga Workout for New Moms by Jyothi Larson

Yoga and Motherhood:

Spilt Milk Yoga, a guided self-inquiry to finding your own wisdom, joy and purpose through Motherhood by Cathryn Monro (The book I am currently reading at the moment, lots of inspiration and wisdom, as well as a reminder that Motherhood is a spiritual journey in itself).

Mothering from your center, Tapping Your Body’s Natural Energy for Pregnancy, Birth, and Parenting by Tami-Lynn Kent (This book is also on my to read list. I have read several of her books, which I thought were interesting, inspiring and enjoyable)

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Favorite Yoga/Healing/Self-development/Spiritual Books

It has been a long time since I found and made time to write/post/blog. Today after teaching my yoga class, one of my students reminded me of my website and the books I recommended to her, which I could make available to all. This has been on my mind for a while too, hence this post.

I have always loved reading! I remembered receiving an award in the last class of primary school for having read the most books. I would often read in bed and our babysitter would reminded me to sleep instead of read in bed till late. In high school, I lost the love of reading for a while after having to read ‘literature books’ and analyzing them into detail. I lost my love and joy for reading only temporarily luckily.

The last decade, I have been drawn mainly to books about yoga, healing, self-development, spirituality etc I know very boring, right? I am a bit of nerd. Before becoming a mum I would read lots of maternity, pregnancy and baby books, I will keep that list for another time. Inspiring books remind me what is really important in life, I use them to prepare my yoga sessions and they are a great way for me to relax and not to waste time on social media.

So here is my (longish) list. I have organised them into two main groups, yoga and self-development/healing, although some of them fit in both the groups. Thank you for everyone who has been recommending books to me and I would love to hear about your favourite books!

Yoga Books

The Yamas & Niyamas, Exploring Yoga’s Ethical Practice, by Deborah Adele

Bringing Yoga to life, the everyday practice of enlightened living, by Donna Farhi

Fierce Medicine, Breakthrough practices to heal the body and ignite the spirit, by Ana T. Forrest

Perfectly Imperfect, The art and soul of yoga practice, by Baron Baptiste

The Path of the Yoga Sutras; a Practical Guide to the core of Yoga, by Nicolair Bachman

Wheel of Life, The Classic Guide to the Chakra System, by Anodea Judith PhD

The Four Desires : creating a life of purpose, happiness, prosperity and freedom, by Rod Stryker


Self-development/Healing Books

The Dance of Connection, How to talk to someone when you’re mad, hurt, scared, frustrated, insulted, betrayed or desperate by Harriet Goldhor Lerner

The gifts of imperfection, Let go of who you think you’re supposed to be and embrace who you are, by Brene Brown

Daring Greatly, How the courage to be vulnerable transforms the way we live, love, parent and lead, by Brene Brown

Anatomy of the spirit, The Seven Stages of Power and Healing, by Caroline Myss, Ph.D

The surrender experiment: My journey into life’s perfection, by Michael Singer

The untethered soul, The journey beyond yourself, by Michael Singer

Wild Feminine, Finding Power, Spirit & Joy in the Female Body by Tami Lynn Kent

The Power of Now, A Guide to Spiritual Enlightenment, by Ekhart Tolle




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