Home is where the heart is

 

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Three weeks ago we moved into our first home. Exciting times. Scary times. I realized I went into a business mode; keep myself occupied with packing, preparation and at times just running around without a clear purpose. When I finally had the courage, I took the time to stand still and actually feel my anxiety, my nerves. My analysing mind didn’t really understand why? You are still staying in the same town, the same country, with the same partner, with the same job and same friends and family nearby. Why am I nervous at all? For me that is exactly the scary thing; everything stays the same with boredom around the corner. Owning my own home, feels extremely serious, grown-up and indefinite. The last ten years of my life has been full of travelling, change, meeting new people, change of jobs, change of countries and cities. That is what I am naturally drawn to; adventure and excitement. After a therapy session with a friend, it became really clear to me, that I have always been on the run; looking for new adventures, creating new excitement. I never really settled anywhere, because that for me is really scary. Moving to the other side of the world and starting a new life isn’t that scary. And now I am truly settling here; own home, car, chickens, veggie garden. Who ever thought that? When I was young I told myself I am going to travel the world for the rest of my life and live from a backpack, no need to settle. If I look back, I can see clearly I was always on the run for my own fears, even in my dreams. From the outside, people thought I was fearless and dare to do everything. From within, however, I was full of anxiety, insecurity and nerves often about the small things in life that was for me scarier.

And honestly after the first stress and nerves of moving, it actually feels DAMN good! Having your own safe haven, own home feels wonderful! Together we can create a place we truly feel comfortable. It feels nurturing, grounding and I just don’t want to leave home anymore! I feel supported and I am better able to handle the tough outside world after being charged by being at home. I never imagined it to be like this. The last couple of days, I have been feeling very grounded, centred and content, as if I am finally start to root and arrive HOME. Our home and my partner truly give me the feeling I am taken care of. I am nurtured, supported, loved. As if for the first time, I start to feel very comfortable in my body and my life, feeling a deep sense of contentment. The urgent need to do, compare, compete and accomplish slowly start to diminish. I realize I have also started to take better care of myself, allow myself to sleep in and rest without judging myself for being lazy. I allow myself to relax, enjoy and don’t mind so much if I have a less productive day. There is no urgent need to DO anymore. There is just this perfect moment, where I can hang out and chill and Be.

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Be Real

Again, I have been blown away by the amazing and powerful effects of The Journey Process. For me it is the quickest way to feel peaceful, happy and at ease, to arrive home.

Dear you,

I am grateful we met! I would like you to know;

  • It touches me if you dare to share the truth – what is going on right now, here.
  • It touches me if you speak from your heart, saying how you really feel.
  • It touches me if you leave the stories for what they are – stories – and really start to experience and feel.
  • It touches me if you share with me, what you usually don’t share at all.
  • It touches me to see your eagerness to come at peace with life.
  • It touches me if I see you surrender.
  • It touches me if you forgive completely and utterly from the bottom of your heart.

Emotions can be the gateway to our soul, to our true desires, to our true being. Don’t fight or resist emotions. Just let it be.

We will become mirrors and invite other’s to be REAL as well. No need for masks, pretending or hiding. It is time to say YES to life!

Namaste!

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To borrow for Free

To borrow for Free (if wished you can keep it) : Sensitivity – including:

  • the ability to cry abundantly and the inability to hide your tears
  • the ability to get upset easily
  • the ability to worry about what other people think of you
  • the ability to easily belief and trust others
  • the ability to feel vulnerable regularly
  • the ability to feel emotional often
  • the ability to feel your heart screaming if ignored
  • Feeling often inadequate in our society
  • Wonders why everybody is not a little nice to each other

Also: (prefer to keep those):

  • the ability to feel intensely happy
  • the ability to smile and laugh easily
  • the ability to make fun of yourself
  • the ability to connect easily with others
  • the ability to feel compassion for others effortlessly
  • the ability to give compliments easily
  • the ability to write and share their emotional state with others to process

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Confessions of a White Yogini

More Confessions! Read my latest article on Elephant Journal:

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/06/confessions-of-a-white-yogini-jacinta-aalsma/

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Confessions of a yogini

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I am a stress chicken. I can create trouble, worries & anxiety in my mind, skilfully & abundantly and without much effort. At times it feels like my default nature. This is the main reason why I turned to Yoga in the first place, to ground myself, to create stability & ease in my body and life. One of the first things I can do is to bring my awareness back in my body, through asana (postures), through pranayama (breath), through dhyana (meditation).

Asana helps me to start the journey from my mind to my heart. To start to connect with my creativity and inner child, to move, to dance, being playful and going upside down. Asana while in nature is Divine. It brings me back to my childhood, playing & running outside, being adventurous, trying new things, feeling the wind in my hair & sun on my skin. I hear the birds singing a beautiful song, feel the sand or grass in between my toes. From here responsibilities & worries starting to slide of my shoulders, I start to connect more deeply with the world around me. I come back home in my body and in this moment. My breathe starts to deepen & my heart starts to speak; expressing her desires. Time Stops. Life Starts.

I am

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Creating balance while riding the waves of Life

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Ocean Inspiration

“Going up side down, changes my perspective on life.

Backbends open my heart for the love already here around me.

Together they bring my mind at ease to experience this very moment.

They raise my heartbeat and create heat to remind me of my body.

Practicing outside in nature is magical and makes me feel connected to this beautiful world.

I feel the sand tickling my feet and a sea breeze going through my hair.

The Sun brighten my day and enlighten my heart.

The nearby sea radiates a feeling of freedom and greatness.

It reminds me to flow with the waves of life.

To let go of control and embrace relaxation and trust.

Dear Ocean, will I ever learn to be like you?

Will I be full of trust to go with the flow? “

~Ocean fan~


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Laughter!

Where there’s seriousness, there’s ego.

Where there is laughter, there is faith.

Where there is little laughter, there is little success.

Where there is laughter, there is love.

It is time to get your medicine: LAUGH! PLAY! SMILE! HAVE FUN! BE CHILDLIKE!

Happy April Fool’s Day! 😉

 

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HAPPY International HAPPINESS DAYYYYY!

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Do you sometimes wonder ‘why me?’

“Hardship often prepares an ordinary person for an extraordinary destination. Turn that test into your testimony… “
 
And fly the waves of life

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